Monday Ramblings 

Written by nuttykitten

Yesterday Master woke Kit up super early in the morning to help Him get dressed for His business formal day. Kit jumped up in a fright thinking that yesterday was Monday and that she was late for work…

Master was already half dressed when Kit finally came to her senses. Checked His tie, shirt collar, and cuffs. All free of wrinkles and good to go. Master had Kit kneel to put His socks on…that was something new and Kit really liked it. To see Him all dressed up in suit and tie always gives Kit the goosebumps. Such a handsome man…shall make all other girlies swoon over Him! 

Kit likes it when Master tells stories about how other girls, or their parents even, will try to hit on Him and He will always follow up with He is married…it feeds into Kit’s possessive nature, but that’s how it is with many girls. Conflicting with Kit’s slave nature? A tad bit, but Kit is not sorry. 

Kit didn’t miss any details down to the matching cufflinks and pocket square. Of course we can’t leave the final detail out and that’s Master’s necklace, which conceals the key to Kit’s collar. Kit presented the key to Him followed with “Thank you for being Kit’s Master” it’s our daily ritual no matter how early Master has to leave the house. 

Later in the morning, Kit steeled her resolve to shampoo the carpet, scrub down the shower, and clean the fridge. Few of the bigger tasks that Kit really dislikes. By the time when Master got home in the evening, Kit was pooped. “What’s gotten into you?” Master asked after Kit listed off all the chores Kit had completed. He was clearly impressed with the Kit, but Kit’s initial odd response was feeling a bit defensive and a little hurt. It’s quite strange really to harbor such feelings now that Kit has sometime to think about it. 

In the past, when someone says that to the Kit, It’s almost always in a negative conotation. Followed by “where was your brain at?” or “you could have done better” or something of the like. So when Master said it last night, it just triggered a series of emotions, one linked to another. The internal conflict went something like this: 

“Can’t you see that Kit works hard so that you can come home worry free?” 

“Wait thats not nice way of wording things” 

“Kit has been indicating it in her blogs, haven’t you been paying attention?” 

“Damn it! totally sounded confrontational”

Kit felt sorry for the Master at times, because there are weird triggers here and there that Kit isn’t even aware of. So when Master asked what went wrong, Kit just blurted out “Guess Master has not been paying too much attention…” and thought “too passive aggressive…” 

We didn’t get into any fights or conflict or anything. Kit reassured Master it wasn’t Him. It’s something that Kit needs to work on. So after that, Kit was just stuck in a weird emotional funk for rest of the night. Feeling better now that Kit can recount everything and pinpoint what went wrong. Hope Master will understand when He gets a chance to read this. 

This morning when Master was about to leave, Kit asked if He needs any change of clothes considering He is starting His intensive week and probably won’t be home till midnight…or untill Thursday… Master said: “No need. Will be home tonight to cuddle the Kit for better night of sleep.” That comforted the Kit a lot, but we’ll see how crazy is this notorious intensive week that has gotten everyone on edge. 

11 thoughts on “Monday Ramblings ”

  1. It sounds like you’re still struggling to deal with guilt from the past experiences of growing up. Guilt I will guess was thrown upon you by those who were meant to care for you. (Just a guess.)

    I went through a stage where I learned to react to those triggers by simply stating what the comment made me feel instead of lashing out with guilt and hurt. No accusing mind you, just stating the feeling.

    The Bear very quickly learned the types of things that my mind would ‘run away with’ and also, perhaps most importantly, it gave Him insight as to why and He could then reassure me that His comment and intent was no where near those of the past!

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      1. It takes some time to train yourself to react this way but I hope it works well for you too! Having the type of relationship you have should only help the process, MasterBun will know that it is not about him but instead a past hurt that needs help!

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  2. You are right to not be confrontational. But you are wrong that it is all you. You are a slave. You feed on praise. It is up to Master B to tread lightly until he can find ways to feed that. That isn’t a license to bitch or be negative, but I would say he should have been more neutral, until he determined what deserved praise.

    The dressing as acting as his valet is hot. I love that stuff Good for both of you.

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  3. Discipline over yourself is important in both directions. I doubt that he walked in with the intent to hurt and I agree with the lady’s comment on learning new terrain as you both go through this time period.

    We can all speak in haste and say things that, in hindsight, we regret. That comment is an opening though. The response to it is what begins to cement the path of the interaction. Again, the lady makes a good point on this. (What I am saying is not a judgement of what either of you did. It is an observation to help you both see your words and the impact of them more clearly going forward.)

    State the feeling then the retort. “Sir, your comment stung and I now feel on edge. Cleaning this evening tired me. May we talk?” Consider a physical move/signal. A wise example would be to stop and write what you intend to say. Advantages to some act like this are:

    He gets a visual clue that something is afoot. It gives him a moment to consider, “change hats” and lead you both.

    You get a moment to think about the words and how they are conveyed.

    You both realize that this is important and deserves attention.

    You both drop extraneous stimuli and see the other.

    You both get a chance to not make a statement you live to regret.

    Neither of you will ever be perfect, none of us are. Calm discourse will allow you to love being imperfect together.

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    1. Will definately keep your advice in mind.

      Since we’ve been together for so long, we sometimes take eachother for granted and the words spoken can be a bit careless and sometimes hurtful.

      Kit is very careful to not sound judgemental…but at times despite what Kit says He can be a bit defensive. Think He is still trying to adjust to the new Kit from the old Kit who was definately much more judgmental and a bit condescending =/ Humm from this point of view…guess He has His triggers too. Just realized that.

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      1. Yes ma’am he does, he’s human just like you. I doubt either of you will get parvo though. That’s a good thing, right?

        All I encourage is that you both remember that, even at 90, you love a human. A moments thought and a kind ear go a long ways at some of life’s unexpected moments.

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